LOVE LETTER TO MYSELF

DEAREST MICHELLE,

 I know you are going through a lot of changes in your life. Many of these changes causing a lot of mental and physical turmoil. I know how hard it is to see yourself in the light OF LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE BUT AT LEAST FOR NOW, REMEMBER YOUR COURAGE.
IT IS COURAGEOUS TO BE SELF ACCEPTING, TO WANT TO CHANGE YOUR BEHAVIOR, TO WANT TO CHANGE YOUR PERCEPTION, TO WANT TO FACE YOUR PAST.
REMEMBER THAT ABOVE ALL ELSE.

YOU ARE NOT BROKEN, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, IT IS HOW YOU REACT THAT MATTERS. YOU ARE STRONG AND LOYAL. POSITIVE AND WISE. THESE CHARACTERISTICS WILL HELP YOU THROUGH THESE TIMES.

KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED EVEN IF IT IS NOT FROM YOURSELF. THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT YOU HAVE HELPED THAT YOU HAVE COMFORTED, THAT TRULY FEEL THAT THEY COULDN’T HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT YOU. YOU ARE ALWAYS AND FOREVER LOVED.

THE PAST IS THE PAST. DO NOT DWELL, BUT USE EVERY MOMENT AS A GUIDE TO HELP YOU SEE HOW FAR YOU HAVE COME. CHOOSE TO LEAVE THE PAST WHERE IT LIES. THAT IS THE OLD YOU AND YOU ARE ALWAYS, ALWAYS CHANGING INTO A BETTER VERSION OF YOU EVERY DAY. THE MISTAKE YOU MADE YESTERDAY IS JUST A LESSON FOR TODAY AND TOMORROW, IT WILL NOT BE A MISTAKE AGAIN.
DO NOT LET THESE MISTAKES DETERMINE YOUR WORTH OR VALUE. DO NOT LET OTHERS OPINIONS OF YOU DEFINE YOUR WORTH OR VALUE.
YOUR PROGRESS IN LIFE IS WHAT IS IMPORTANT, NEVER FORGET HOW MUCH STRENGTH YOU HAVE IN FACING THE MIRROR EVERYDAY AND CHOOSING TO LOOK AT YOUR DOWNFALLS AS POTENTIAL TO TRANSCEND. TAKING EACH DAY TO SHED YOUR OLD SKIN.

IT IS A PAINFUL JOURNEY YOU ARE ON, AND YOU MUST HONOR YOURSELF BY ALLOWING YOURSELF THE TIME AND UNIQUENESS OF IT TO REMAIN SACRED. TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF AND STAY OPEN TO WHATEVER EVENTS MAY OCCUR DURING YOUR JOURNEY AS A NECESSITY OF IT’S EFFECTIVENESS FOR YOU TO HEAL.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH. YOU ARE NECESSARY AND YOU ARE PERFECT IN EVERY WAY. DO NOT FORGET HOW FAR YOU HAVE COME, HOW BRAVE YOU ARE, OR HOW MUCH YOU CONTRIBUTE BY SIMPLY JUST EXISTING.

MICHELLE  

words, words, words

the drips that drop through darkness
  hang heavy and helpless
     on the tip of lashes
waiting for my heart to break.

I hear the cracks begin to form.
  The sound echos through me;
reverberating deep within
  an uncontrollable quaking.

My mind replays these painful sounds; spoken words, tones, and assumptions.
  I fight to keep composure.


  I am awakened by emotion
and a subconscious need to be seen.



I hope I have Integrity
When Speaking With Sobriety
And Shaking With Anxiety


Expelling my shadow without knowledge.
I'm awakening little bits at a time.